Back on Track

After a few rocky weeks I am hopefully getting back on track. It seems silly writing that when I'm only 6 or 7 weeks out from surgery.
One of the things I am realising with this band is that it won't stop me eating the wrong things. Of course, I knew this going into it, but for some reason knowing it in theory and then KNOWING it from experience are two different things.

Work has been stressful (more than usual) and there are a couple of family things going on that are even too personal to write about on a personal blog. We are also looking at building a house soon, so we're on a budget and trying to save for that. Plus having to think about the band all the time was a bit too much.
I didn't feel any restriction from the band yet and I started eating the wrong things; larger portions, a few 'sliders' here and there, things like that. It's meant that I haven't lost anymore weight.

Laying down the law

So I've decided that I'm taking charge again.
There's not much I can do about work right now except be organised and try and stay sane.
There's not a lot I can do about the family issues, except try and put them out of my mind while I'm at work.
We're still looking at houses and my vote is for something cheaper, that still has everything we want but won't make us end up with a ginormous mortgage for the next 30 years.
My mental and physical health though, that has to take priority right now. So I've seen my GP and he's set up Health Care Plans to see both a dietician one on one, as well as a psychologist.
My hope is that I really can take charge and figure out the best strategy for using the band to lose weight, while dealing with some issues that have been around a long time (one of them being that I turn to food when I'm stressed, emotional, tired, bored...).
For the band, I had another fill yesterday of 1ml. It's too soon to tell if it's really working. I was hungry last night, but this morning I'm not (so crossing fingers!).

We've also started doing a few tests through the GP to try and work out the source of our infertility. In the past, doctors have put it down to my weight, but while I'm working on the weight part I also want to make sure that there is no underlying issue from either of us that will also need to be taken into consideration.

So things are looking a little brighter this week.
If only I could afford to quit the job ;)